I was engaged to be married and within a couple of months I was pregnant. I had just ended another engagement three months prior. (I know this sounds crazy). I was rebounding and my previous ex whom I loved deeply, did not want a baby and I had decided long ago that I wanted at least one more because I had my other three when I was so young. KNowing deep down it was a mistake, I went along with it anyway only to find out my fiance was worse than I could have imagined. I mean ladies...eeeekk. I was going to marry a momas boy who would do nothing for me and only smoke cigars and watch football. Me and my children did not exists. Too late however as I was 6 weeks pregnant. I ended up in the emergency room with bleeding twice and he wouldn't come both times. First time he was washing his motorcycle and the second he went back to sleep and said he would pray for me. I am a strong lady so I quit my job, canceled the wedding, and packed me and my kids to move to another state where my other kids father lives. He is a great support and they missed their dad. Though I am tough and strong, I cannot believe I am going to start all over again raising another baby after 34 years of age. Am I an fool? I knew I was sabataging myself when I got pregnant, but a part of me wanted so much to settle down and my fiance appeared to be the one who could make that happen, but I could not settle and be miserable just because I was pregnant. I could sure use some words of encouragement, I am so depressed.