I'm 21 almost 22 years old and I found out about a month ago that I am pregnant for the first time. My boyfriend and I have been together for over two years and have a fairly stable relationship and have lived together for about 9 months. I am experiencing an extreme amount of stress, anxiety and depression and I have no idea how to handle it.

Before I found out that I was pregnant (but would have been after I conceived) I experienced my first panic attack EVER and it was terrifying. Ever since then I have been experiencing anxiety but only about being in a car. It's becoming debilitating and I am spending more and more time in my house and less and less time outside. I have finally been able to handle riding in the car with a select few people but in my mind driving is out of the question and it is driving me crazy (no pun intended). Lately, within the last week or two, an extreme depression has set in to boot. I find myself bursting into tears for thirty minutes at a time with a feeling of desperation like I have never felt before. I shut down for hours at a time with no desire to talk to any one or do anything, I just sit and read until I cannot stand the solitude anymore. My boyfriend is concerned because he has never seen me like this and all he can say is that I'm pushing him away and he doesn't know how to handle me so he has been staying with his mom. This makes me even more depressed because he is the only person I have to turn to. I have no idea how to make him understand that I need him to help me through this, how can I make him see this?

This leads me to my parents, my parents have decided to basically disown me because I am pregnant. They stopped paying for my college tuition so I had to drop out of school. They have told me that there is no longer any room in their home for me and that I have to find a place to live within in the next two weeks, which is difficult because I do not have a job and I am having no luck finding one. They refuse to pay for my doctors appointments and will not ad maternity to my health insurance so I have had to cancel all my doctor's appointments because of right now I am not eligible for medicaid because my parents claim me as a dependent and have too much money, therefore I don't qualify.

I'm sick to death with worry that my baby is going to die because I cannot even get the vitamins I need or go to any doctor's appointments to make sure the baby is even alive still. My parents will not even talk to me and act like I don't even exist, refusing to even get me food when they feed the rest of the family. I feel pushed into an abortion because I want my family back and my depression and anxiety, in my head, is all due to this pregnancy.

Is there any way to make my family and boyfriend see that they have a huge hand in my current mental state and that I need their positivity to get me through this? Also what are my options as far as treatment for this anxiety and depression? I need to get out of the house but I feel like I can't...I definitely need help.