Hey Everyone,
Im brand new here. It has made me feel so good to know I am not alone after reading some of these posts. I am 23 weeks pregnant and, well, the wheels are falling off the bus. My boyfriend of 7 years works up North for 21 days out, and 7 home. I dont have many friends ... the ones I did have seemed to dissapear upon becoming pregnant. My sister and I havent spoken in months. I dont have much of a support system here and find myself really struggling the last little while. Before becoming pregnant, I was working in retail however was laid off in my 2nd month of pregnancy due to shortage of work. I find myself home everyday, in my pjs, eating and crying. I feel so, so alone and somedays dont even want to get out of bed. Luckily I have a healthy pregnancy in most other ways but I know feeling this way is not good or healthy for me or the baby. I love my boyfriend so much and it kills us both for him to be out of town working, but we are struggling financially and its been hard to find a job when I am clearly showing. I feel so lonely and literally like Im starting to go crazy. My mom called tonight to ask how I was and even though I was feeling okay when she phoned, I immediatly started to cry when I answered. I feel like I need to go stand in a canyon and scream at the top of my lungs for 20 minutes. I have always eaten really well and maintained a pretty healthy weight for the most part, but have been eating so poorly and often that I feel groggy and sick 24/7. EX - Today, I had 2 pieces of bread for breakfast, a hamburger and chips for lunch, mr.noodles for dinner and granola bars and treats in between. I know its bad for me and most importantly, baby, but cant seem to gain the energy to cook anything of value. Im not really sure why Im writing this or what Im looking for .. perhaps some ideas of how people have overcome these types of feelings?
Thanks everyone.
Laura