I am 7 months pregnant now and my boyfriend left at 5 months. I went throught the crazy emotional roller coaster during the first trimester and he kept telling me it was my hormones, but I didn't believe him then. I felt like he did not want to be there for me for example: we went to se eone of his friends and his friend told him congratz your having a baby! And his reply, "Yeah" in a sarcastic kind of way. It was times like that over and over that really got to me. We never communicated about it and it really hurt us both!

He didn't have a job at the time and I was bugging him because I was going to need help, but instead he would be with his friends drinking or hanging out. He says that's what "college people do" - I agree because I did too. Because he was with his friends all the time I felt like all he wanted to do was live his life without me or the baby and it hurt. For some reason I wanted to pull away during the first part of the pregnancy.. I didn't want to talk about how I felt and would leave to try to get away. Then He finally did leave and I never thought he would. He said he would always be there for his kid when he has one and he didn't want his kid to have two families. I do love him a lot and can't believe I pulled away like I did in the beginning and now I do nothing but try to work it out and be patient to see if things will go back to the way it was. He tells me it is all my fault, my emotions from the beginning were hell, and if we keep fighting we will never be the same.

He still loves me and we talk everyday but I am really upset about how he left me when I am pregnant. He said overand over he wouldn't; and also said he had a ring for me around the 2month but never gave it to me..soon to find out he lied. He lied about stuff to make me happy because it was something I wanted, but it only hurt me in the end. We have talked about being together later but I am really hurt and don't know what to do. Part of me feels like he is really scared and won't tell me how he feels. He is not the type of person that opens up right away. He tells his mom he is scared and wishes he could do more for me and the baby. If he wants to I don't see why he won't now and work it out now instead of later?! I am really close to his mother and she says it will take time. He even called one night really late and said he can't sleep because he has so much on his mind and if the baby or I need anything to let him know. For a week that seemed to go on - he would text me saying he was upset and can't sleep and he loves me a lot and the baby. I thought it was strange but sweet too.
I just want him to be there and get to see the baby everyday, to be part of his life. To be a family because Ido care about him a lot despite everything that happened. My biggest fear is being with the baby and alone, he says he will be there for me and the baby but because he left me how do I know he will? I am in college still and my parents will help me I know but I am depressed about how it turned out and don't know what to do!!!

I am really excited about the baby and tell him stuff about the apt's and he has gone to the past two. I just thought he would be more excited about the crib and being a part of it all. Can anyone offer suggestions??
I really do want to work it out and hope it is worth it. But I know if it doesn't I will be okay - I am just really scared and feel alone. Want some advice please.