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You are most certainly not insane. You are quite conscious and awake. You have a mental health disorder. You are not alone. I have 2 children that have had similar experiences with auditory hallucinations. They both take risperidal. You may be experiencing cognitive dulling due to the risperdal. Have you reported this to the psychiatrist? You may need the dose cut back a bit. Another medication can be added that would perhaps cause less cognitive impairment. You need to tell your parents about this. Let them know about the disconnected feelings and still hearing voices. These are all indications that you are not stable. This warrants a visit to the doctor.

You are not stupid. Medications can dull you. With the right doses and combinations of medications you can recover your former abilities. Go to your parents and let them know what is going on.

Thx for replying, i take only 1 mg of risperdone, i think its farless then avrage

Yes, that is a low dose. Perhaps you need a different medication altogether. Mood stabilizers can be very effective. There are other antipsychotics that may be more effective for you. Your doctor needs to know what is happening with you. I encourage you to notify your doctor. You are so young and deserve to have a full life. Finding the right medication takes time and it is trial and error. There is no one size fits all formula. I know it can be tiring to do this. Be persistent. You can feel better.

Pot gave me skitso too, but somehow I recoverd (not 100%)
now i sometime smoke pot And have the biggest insights ever, and it helps
I smoke once a month tho

Age 57 Schizophrenia since 16 and have smoked pot since 16 off and on Agrees with some meds, Trying to quit. Who's out there?

I'm here. i'm schizophrenic. i've also quit doing drugs including pot. pot has a very bad effect on me. i was very addicted to it, and i knew it. everyday i would wake up and nothing was more important than smoking it again. it took me realizing that there would be legal consequences because of things like delayed responses while driving, mainly my driving, and i also had significantly more voices while on pot than off. being in a bad situation for me, forced me to quit, and i've never been more thankful for anything in my life. the last of my addictions, cigarettes, was quit two weeks ago. i had always seen myself as a huge addict and i tell you that life without dependance on anything is always better than relying on something for your wellbeing. plus pot would always cloud my thinking, and i socialized with non-pot smokers, and that made me paranoid. so more schizo voices, paranoia, and a nasty addiction. i don't care how many times i read its not physically addicting. simply because its extremely psychologically addicting, to the extent where it matters very little what kind of addiction it is. you still have to have it. whether its your mind or your body it matters very little. its so good to be off all that stuff but i tell you it can be done.

people might think that life is boring without out. thats the mentality of pot smokers. if life is boring without it, i'd rather create another addiction that is positive and good for me to replace that boredom. thats the nature of addiction you replace one addiction with another.

you'll also realize that you'll have to find new friends. when i was a pot smoker all my friends were people who drank and did drugs. i find that making friends that dont do that stuff is much more fullfilling, seeing as people who are addicts tend to have more problems, though, very often they dont realize it.

yes its much better for you and its not easy but it can be done and it ought to be done. our genetic designs do not include dependancy on a external force for happiness or to cure boredom.