I am currently in recovery from an episode of major depression. I tried to kill myself last February, and since then, have undergone therapy, meditation training, and am on medication. I've made a lot of lifestyle changes, and am feeling a lot better, but I still feel like I have something of a monkey on my back, that I can't talk to people about. Many of my close friends know that this happened, but I feel like I can't really talk about it without upsetting them. I've also lost "good" friends while in the process of recovery. Has this happened to anyone else? I feel sometimes as though I'm being punished for suffering, and that I might lose new friends if I open up about the scarier sides of myself.