If you are like I was, you cry for the years that have passed you by...You know that you will never see them again as you have now entered the twilight zone of older age. (You see, at that moment, you don't know that you have only just begun)......You cry because now you will never have anymore children.. (I will never understand why I cried about that..but I did).....You cry because it feels like a truck ran over you and came back for a second hit.....You cry because you are still bleeding and this was supposed to be the ultimate benefit of this whole thing....You cry because it feels like the doctor took everything out of your insides and must have misplaced things when he put them back in..and it hurts.....You really cry because you can't take Morphine...You found that you were allergic to this on the first night after surgery when you kept the nurses up telling them that needles were sticking out all over your body......You cry because you remember that the stupid pain killer tablets that you had to live on for the next three weeks just plain did not work.....And lastly you cry because your teen age son told you that you are now like their dog....Both of you have been spayed.....That one he could not understand.....I just laid my head down on the kitchen table and cried my head off while my family looked at me not knowing what to say next.....

I guess that this is why I cried......But honey, it will go away and life will be better than it has ever been in your life......

I send you all my love,
Caroline

I just looked at your post again...When I read it the first time, I saw that you used narcotics, however, I figured this was just during and after the hospital visit....This morning I looked at it again...I have a habit of reading too fast and not absorbing things that I should...Hopefully this will slow me down...

These are nasty medications to get over....They must be taken away slowly and definitely do have a life altering affect on you.....Years ago I used medically prescribed Valium......I remember this well and it was another of my learning times in life....It was nothing that I did but the pain of life with having children....

Maybe your crying is helping you see the light of day....Maybe the loss of your uterus reminds you that you, like I, are no longer the woman we used to be.......And just maybe that it is the complete realization that we both were and are growing older....Maybe we cry for our yesterday that is gone and the new today that we will find....Maybe these are tears of joy for our tomorrow.....All these things are a maybe......But...

I like you am alive.....We have a new tomorrow and if you think you need help get it....I guess this is why I am here.....I have traveled all these roads in life and this Forum is part of my tomorrow....And may I add that I feel that I have only just begun....Life is good....

Find peace my friend....
Caroline

First of all I want to say thank you for responding. I thought I was all alone out there. Since the hysterectomy I have not been able to control the crieing but it has gotten better. The gyno bumped me up to 2mg of estrogen, and I am doing a little better. I do see a pyschiatrist, and he has to reassess my meds tomm. according to what I tell him. I am going to stay with some family and get away for a while. I live in some what of an isolated area so I think it would do me good, plus I will not be stuck here without a car. STEP BY STEP, DAY BY DAY. AGAIN THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONCERNS, GOD BLESS, chrismj28

Honey: I insert Estring into my vagina every three months...This is a disc that is put high up inside me and does not affect intercourse...It pumps estroil into me daily...Make me feel and act like a "young chick"....

As a woman I can say that without a doubt I blossomed after my Hysterectomy........No more periods and PMS....Free....Sexually on fire and found that life had only just begun.....Only being this way and feeling what I do, could I turn my husband around and off Viagra....He is now a stud without the stud medicine.....Now you have fun and enjoy.....I am here anytime you want to talk....

I send you all my love,
Caroline