Okay, so my boyfriend visited about 2 weeks ago now. Those of you that have been around know that I got pregnant with him, while using the pill, about a year ago. I chose abortion for many reasons, it was very hard, but given the circumstances it was the best decision for me. Since that experience we've used both birth control pills and condoms and even some NFP. I'm terrified now because this is the second time my period has ever been late (the first time being of course when I got pregnant). I keep telling myself that I can't possibly be pregnant again.
I don't want to have another abortion. I also know I couldn't possibly keep any child (I don't want children and I'm planning on spending the next 8 years studying to be a surgeon). This leaves adoption. The biggest problem is my boyfriend is still on Accutane, which causes severe birth defects. I don't know what the standard is for any child conceived under those conditions. I'm also afraid because my boyfriend lives 40 hours away from me. I live in a much smaller city with only one abortion clinic.
I don't know what I'm asking for, maybe someone to just tell me that it's oh so unlikely. I'm so worried, I don't want to go through that again.