yes i am tired, no matter how much i sleep. i feel drained. i feel occasionally confused, but its more like im spacing out then anything. my blood test came back normal, except for the lymphocytes and neutrophils. i dont have any skin rashes at all, no headaches, i had crazy night sweats like last week ago when i was on my period but not anymore. my vision has been fine, my eyes have been extremely dry though no matter how much water i drink. the only change in my skin is that ive gotten alot of random bruises. im not anemic though, im also not diabetic (even though i have the symptoms of both haahah). for 2 weeks before this all started, i had been very depressed, i felt sore, i was tired, and my lymph nodes were hurting really bad, mostly the ones on my chest. and the day this all happened i was pretty much ok, despite those other things i listed. i dont take birht control because heart attack and blood clots run in my family. my mom took low dose for a year and got a bad blood clot in her arm. (and she weighed 114 at the time). so no i dont take birth control and i never will, lol. i used to google all my symptoms all the time and it just made me feel worse so i stopped. i dont have anxiety anymore at all, im just depressed, tired, and sore, and im loosing weight for no reason. i have had ALOT and i mean ALOT of bad things happen in the past 2 years. basically i am the power house of the family. for awhile my mom and dad wanted to divorce cause my dad was doing....bad things. id hear them fight all the time, id hear him blame everything on her. shed run to me to cry to me, and i made her feel better. i hated my father, still do, for everything hes done. he pressure my mom to do stuff and shes a weak soul, really, and so shed always come to me because im strong minded like my father. my grandma died, around then (this is 10 years ago so yes my mom came running to a 9 year old for help...what can i say, i was very mature for my age). after that everything went downhill. my cousin got married to a drug dealer. got her pregnant and left. my great grandma died. my aunt and uncle divorced so i never got to see my cousins much anymore which i used to see all the time. my brother (whom was my best friend, 8 years older than me, but we did everything together) became an a hole and left the house, and now he does drugs and many other things, and calls me just to tell me about it. my uncle died. my dad had a heart attack, and despite everything he still eats the same, and blames my MOM for everything that happened to him which is bull. my friends whom i loved so much moved and i suddenly went from doing something everyday to doing nothing, and never getting invited any where. theres many more things but, my mom and i both agree that for all these years, im the one who comforted everybody, and i was expected to be the strong one. strong ones cant break down and cry, you have to look emotionaly stable for everybody! its what they expect! oh not to mention, i got a boyfriend at 16 and lost my virginity and started crying right after it happened, and thank god hes not a complete dick and he didnt leave me. were still together. but i never get to see him at al cause he goes to school and work. hes added alot of stress to me too though, because its been a secret from my parents for 3 years. and all my life i always tried to treat my parents better then my brother did, cause i saw what he did to them and i didnt want to hurt them. so i never said no to them about anything, never yelled, never cussed, never anything. i did everything they wanted with a pleasant smile. sometimes i would just go in my bedroom and cry because there were so many things i wanted to say but i didnt want to hurt their feelings. so yea.....i guess all these things are sort of "symptoms" that led up to this. i think what happend is ive kept all this crap bottled up in me, and my brain finally said "i cant take this anymore" and flipped out. im going to get a therapist, which will be great because ill have someone to talk to that isnt biast and wont get angry, cause i dont like people being mad at me. so my mind is leading towards depression right now. im still gonna do other tests though, just in case, cause some medical problems can mimick depression and anxiety, or cause you to get anxiety so thats why im going to a nature path doctor. anyways sorry i wrote so much, im trying to learn to express myself better and i usually do that better through writing. so yea, hope you dont mind reading! lol. do you have kids? are you married???