Hi,
Thanks in advance for reading this and for your guidance. I'm a 34 old year husband and father. I consider myself healthy (I do long-distance running) and in general I’m very health conscious (some what obsessive about it). My mom is a nurse and my dad died when he was 44 from a stroke. I’m the worry type of guy.
Acouple months ago I got on the wrong track and made a couple huge mistakes: During the same week I had sex one time with a co-worker. We used a condom but she gave me oral with no protection. I know that oral sex is considered somewhat a low risk in terms of hiv but my concern is that she 3 hours earlier had been to the dentist for a routine check-up. Later that same week I met another girl at a bar and we French kissed several times. Again, I know that contracting hiv from kissing is very low. But she told me that her husband was bi and my concern is that I had a tiny bit of sore throat when I kissed her. What if I got infected that way? Maybe she had a cut in her mouth? Or something else?
I felt horrible after these encounters and overwhelmed with guilt. It got worse and worse and about a month after I started to feel pins and needles (note a couple years ago I remember reading that this could be early sign of hiv infection). First in my feet and legs. I would wake up during the night with night sweats (2-3 total). My chest would be all wet and my feet would be warm and sweaty as well. I would start to panic and have a really hard time going back to sleep. I was so sure I had gotten hiv. About a week or two into it I went to my Dr. and told him about it all. During the conversation with him I broke down and got very emotional (read: I started to cry). He told me that he thought it was anxiety and gave me a rx for Celexa and Xanaz (0.25mg). Xanax did nothing for my in terms of sleeping. I would fall asleep but wake up two hours later. I also started to feel nausea and a little difficulty swallowing. I started to obsess about it. I couldn’t let it go. I ended up asking the first girl to get tested for STD’s incl. hiv. She did and I saw the negative results. Still, I couldn’t let it go. What about the girl I kissed? I continued to go on the web to try and diagnose myself and
At 4 weeks I took an hiv test antibody, another one again at 6 1/2 weeks.
I started seeing a counselor and a psychologist M.D. who prescribed me more Celexa but increased the dose from 20mg to 40mg (over a couple of weeks). She also gave me clonazepam which helped me sleep at night. That is I would wake up around 3 or 4 and then go back to sleep until around 6. Despite my Dr., the counselor and the psychologist M.D. all telling me that my pins and needles ( which had spread to the most of my body - meaning probably 80% of the time in my feet but then on occasion in my hands, face, back etc.) were caused by anxiety I just couldn't get it into my head. I was so convinced that it was/is hiv. My Dr. ended up ordering an Hiv-1 PCR by RNA test (48ml copies - 10.000.000) after about 7 weeks and told me that it for sure would tell me whether or not I had contracted hiv. It came back negative/or none detected. I felt better afterwards but I still had my pins and needles. I went on the web and read that the PCR by RNA test was not approved by FDA as a detection test but supposed to be used to for people who already were diagnosed with hiv. Sigh! What a set back. The pins and needles continued. At almost 8 ½ to 9 weeks I took another hiv antibody test - negative. This is where I'm at now. I still have the pins and needles - primarily in my feet and they seem to be worse when I wear tighter shoes. Though compare to about 3-4 weeks they have somewhat subsided but not gone.
In addition, my Dr. also did a blood test for a long list of different things (probably 25 different ones); such as B12, White and red blood count etc. Everything came back within range.

Could this really be caused by anxiety - it feels so really to me and I fear it never will go away

Is there a chance it could be hiv? If so, when should I take the next test?

I appreciate you advice and comments.
Thank you,
p.s. I have told my wife about all of this and we are trying to work things out…