I'm sorry for the length of this post, I've tried to write it as clear and explain as clearly as I can and hope it makes some sort of sense! Thanks!
I'm not sure whether there's something wrong with my head or whether this is normal. It's really starting to bug me ever since I've started noticing these little things over this summer.
I have a really poor attention span. I could be sitting in an interesting history lesson (no joke, some of it is interesting) or watching an amazing film, but without fail I will end up losing focus at multiple times, getting a really irritable feeling where I just want to get up and walk about or move around my chair or just do something to stop my head wanting to go boom.
I procrastinate too much. I know many people procrastinate, but I've been putting things off for months, some things a year. I'll start them but end up bored and leave them until I feel like starting up again. Other times I'll do the work all at once (only if short), but whilst doing the work I get distracted really easily by the smallest things. It's as if I can't go more than 15 minutes without stopping what I'm working on and doing something else (usually putting on music, going for a drink, letting the dog out). As a result a simple 30 minute task ends up taking an hour.
I feel as if there's a lot of 'white noise' that clouds my mind. It's hard for me to even express this. It's as if I have thoughts that are in my head, but they're unclear and hard to interpret. The only time I ever feel to have clear thoughts is when I dream lucidly. I'm conscious of my dreaming thoughts and everything seems easy to understand. But as soon as I wake up and try to remember clearly the dream, it's plagued with this fuzzyness.
I have a horrible memory for things that happen but am academically able to learn and comit things to memory if I read them and write them down. If I'm reading something I need to learn I need to write it out, even if it's just copying out word for word. I struggle to remember what happens in novels I've read, and if I'm discussing a book with somebody and they mention a specific point it may take a lot of thought to remember, and even then it feels like I only remember what they just told me, but not actually reading it myself.
I'll easily forget the name of somebody new, or something that happened hours before. At first it's easy to laugh off, but once you get a reputation for being forgetful, it starts to suck as people expect you not to remember.
Now, I've looked all of these things up on the internet and I've come across ADD, which at first I thought was a stupid idea, I still do kindof, but maybe there is sense in some of it? Or I'm being an idiot?
Looking at these questions (http://add.about.com/od/evaluationanddiag
nosis/a/adultaddsymptom.htm), I'd say I answer yes to at least 80% of them.
See, I assumed that people that had this ADD are really hyperactive and typically don't do well at school due to it. Which is causing me to question further, what is wrong with my head?
Are these just typical teenage things (I'm 16 going on 17), or could there be something else as it feels like there is, and it's starting to affect my education now that I can't just learn things, I actually need to focus to learn as it's so much more advanced compared to before. But I can't actually get my head down and keep with it unless I find it incredibly interesting and my brain can get into it, even then I can get distracted and everything stops.
You have no idea how long this post took to type, and how many times I ended up distracted. I just hope I actually get replies, as I seldom do when I make posts this long.
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