I went to the movies today and the mall try to relax but was tired and stressing have i worked myself up so much that I cant get as worked up as I have been..sorry Like i said I was at the movies and started to thinking about if I have hiv or if I have something else now but my mind is still thinking about hiv I couldnt sit through the movie so I left and went home because I felt lil better home now I'am home reading forums on stuff im not stressing as much..My moms says have stressed myself up so much that my body prob cant stress out anymore.and that I have had two panic attacks she says in tthis past week.=/My mind is racey Im gonna go out tonight as my friend just called right now theyre gonna be driinking and smoking weed and what not but I WILL NOT! their also gonna hangout with some girls I ALSO WILL NOT BE TRYING ANY SEXUAL THINGS TO imma just go out to take my mind off stuff <3 you all be back later
I went to the walk n clinic where I live by they said my medi-cal card didnt work I feel like crap still having bathroom issues and I cant get over the fact what I did im sad and feel like a waste atm and feel like my parents are taking this to serious im so scared i cant take my mind off anything =( and when I dont look stressed I still am and still thinking about it deep down inside ..I threw up stomach acids and felt like more crap oh my it hard to explain the way i feel and how crapp i feel inside and out and why im sick and have these pains and aches.
I read this thread on another site and im scared as heck just not showing it.I read this person who had sex with a HIV+ person and was their bf..about 10weeks ago and also that is when I had my last encounter I think 11 weeks almost for me though..is talking about how they feel and it's exacly how I feel even the lil pink dots on their thighs =/Im super scared I feel like takiing a shower and crying.they feel exactly how I feel their gonna take their test in like another week but why do they feel exactly how I do and have the same dots and it's almost exactly during the same time period why did I do what I did =(
It's okay Blue..Im up bored stressed myself out again then will calm down and do it all over again..-_- how was everyones day today good I Hope..well im going to lay down I feel like I make myself tired and my head hurts some what..I just wanna thank you all for your replies and support it does make me feel better through out my day I will say a prayer for you all tonight
Hi all ...I feel better when I speak about how I feel ..I dont feel sick really just alil here and their mainly worried about what the results of my test is gonna be Now it's Tuesday I got blood taken away from me last week.Wonders if 10 weeks is long time .Worried about getting a phone or something this week..it's so hard to relax I wonder how many people feel the way I do and felt sick like this Im scared sorry for bringing my worry onto the forum <3
Thats what we are here for...to hopefully relieve your worried mind I love the fact that we are here for each other threw good and bad times...you are a great kid, Kyl3 and no matter what, your a valuable and wonderful person who has a huge heart and sweet spirit...I am very proud of you. :hey:talking it out helps a lot...
Homer and everyone pray for me please My friend who felt the same way I do got his test results in today and he came back positive and im getting my results tomorrow.in the monring and he feels the exact same way i do and!=(I dont know what to think right now im scared.
Today I got my test results back and they came back negative but I still have a headache and dont feel to good for some reason =/
Probobly stress from all this drama...its great that your test came back negative...now...PLAY SAFE from now on,do you hear me?
Congratulations,my friend...I am SO re leaved and happy for you...I was worried.
thank you homer and i will not be taking off anytime soon i will be here still thats for the support and prays my head is still hurting and everything being so worked up did a number on me i love you guys and ty..and i will be the safest ever now <3