If you put something big in your vagina there is a good chance you popped your cherry. Normally it will bleed a little and it can be painful for a bit. If you do not know what it looked like, it is difficult to see for yourself. A doctor can normally tell.
Have you take a mirror and looked at what you look like?
If you do not mind me saying so, it does not sound like you are ready to have sex yet. It is nothing to be ashamed of. It will happen when you are ready. You have plenty of time left to have sex, do not force it.