my grandfather raped his daughter multiple times, and got her pregnant. my dad beat the crap out of my mom, me, and my three siblings. my brother is mentally abusive to his kids. it seems like this horrible thing is being past down by the men in my family.
i really think my dad had mentally issues. i cant speak about my grandfather because he lived in a different state and i didnt really know him. my brother is normal and it is a learned behavior.
my heart breaks when i hear about physically abuse or rape.
It really breaks my heart hearing those stories. I have been abused several times by several men. I was molested by my cousin aged 16 and I was just 6. Again molested by an unknown stranger when I walk in the park of the dark condominium. I was 12. Molested again by my friend's dad. I was 16. And the worst thing... I was raped by my friend's friend. He was drunk!
If it's not wrong to kill people, I'll kill them all! to what they've done to me! I was in trauma for 2 months, not speaking not eating well, couldn't sleep well, grades got low, afraid to be touched by anyone. And Ican still remember clearly what they did to me. And it's killing me everytime I remember it. I posted this topic because the nightmare came back to me again. And I want to feel that I am not alone.
that's the horrible thing about these kind of abuses it keeps a horrible scare in your memory.
i really believe i suffered from PTSD but wasnt diagnosis it, and just went through it alone.
but we have to be positive and get on with life, even though the smallest thing triggers a flashback.
I still have a behavior that I am not concious about sometimes. I tend to look around concious of people especially guys. I never trust anyone I don't know. I am walking and looking at my back while after while and hold my hand into a fist like getting ready to punch anybody who wants to come and touch me. And I really walk very fast. That only happens when I'm alone walking in the city lights. But I am normal happy-go-lucky everyday.