I have relationship for about 4 years, I even got engaged 2 years ago, everything was great better say perfect. Happiness all over us, until 3 months ago when something star to change and one month ago he went for U.S that was the plane we have but I didn’t get my visa and I stay home. I never believed that I can cheat on him I was shore that I am good person. But after three weeks I cheat on him with college from work and I start to have some strange filings like butterfly, and then my fiancé beck and I realize after few days that the butterflies are just not true and realize that I love my fiancé. I love him, and he find out. He told me to tell him the true but I couldn’t and I lie few times but on the end I told him everything that happened. Now He say he love’s me but he feel betrayed from the person he never aspect something like that and I understand him because I betrayed my self to.

I don’t know what to do, I love him so so much, please some advice