please help me

My parents are just mean to me and tell me to get over whats happend to me. And they don't just say it they scream it at me and swear at me and no other parents have ever sworn at there kids. And no other father has over sworn at his daughter or hit her.
I've had some alful things happen to me when I was getting bullied and such alful things said to me no one could understand because nobody has been through anything as bad as I have.
I was mainly bullied because of the way I look. I'am very ugly and deformed looking and my parents just tell me to shut the f up and get an f'ing grip. Why airn't they like all the other parents who would be heart broken about there daughter feeling like this and why don't they see me as the most beautiful thing ever like all the other parents see there kids. They have even told me that Im nothing special but if I lost some weight I would be attractive.
They always giving me crap because I have no friend and never go out. I don't just have no friends I also don't have the money to go out because my saving up to pay my car insurence. And there always giving me crap about been fat and telling me to exercise more when I do exercise.