I have been experiencing many mental
episodes that have lead to a diagnosis of
a paranoia disorder (mild bipolar), when I
went to see a psychiatrist this afternoon.
I was prescribed with 5 mg of Abilify, but
I also have some concerns that I did not
raise during my evaluation.
In addition to the mood swings and
depression that I've experienced, I have
also had some physiological symptoms, and
I am quite concerned because I am worried
that the drug I am being prescribed will
amplify these effects. For instance, for
the longest time (and by longest I mean
pre adolescence), I have experienced heart
palpitations, and sensations in my brain.
When I say sensations, I'm referring to
strange feelings at the top, sides and
sometimes back of my head, that feels like
someone's hand is palming at my brain.
Sometimes this sensation progresses to a
headache (this has been a recent
progression), in which case I've had to
take two doses of ibuprofen to make it go
away. Also, something that has been
happening to me recently is that I have
been experiencing a great deal of
dizziness whenever I bend down and stand
up. I'm not allergic to any medications,
and my only allergy is to fruits except
for bananas. When I was younger, though,
it was only citrus, but I used to drink
orange juice so often that it progressed
slowly to all fruits. There was a period,
though, around 7 or 8, when I wasn't
allergic to anything.
The last thing that I would like to voice
is my sluggishness. While I've never been
active, I have been severely depressed
over these last few months which has made
my sluggishness worse. My mom one day told
me about how when I was a baby I was
incredibly stagnant, and that she used to
take me to see pediatricians to do brain
tests, and examine me for deafness. As a
kid I was always very quiet and withdrawn,
and I am worried that I have been
depressed for some time. I am also worried
that the medication that I have been
placed on will make my physical problems
(the heart beat skipping and my head pains
and dizziness), worse. I can't really
mention anything else other than normal
things like getting cold really easily or
something small like that.
