I have been diagnosed with personality disorder about10yrs ago but Ive never understood what this means. I have recently been in treatment for an e.d and alcoholism and realised how difficult I find being around people. I have serious paranoia that people are trying to get at me and this means I dont trust anyones. I am suspicous of everyone but then I have a day or monent where I feel love for them and then then they say something or act in a way and I know I cant trust them again. Its so tiring and I isolate so much barely leavin my house....Is there any hope I feel desperate this is never going to end...