i suspect everyone is the enemy, walking down corridors in school is difficult because countless people give me looks as if they want to fight me. I often find that anything makes me angry but my mentors tell me that i have been holding it in which is unhealthy. Really i need something that keeps me from jolting in to school and snapping some necks of those who try to hurt me.
I am dysfunctional because everyone else is happy and content but i have a permanent downed mood and often take moments in the day to stop thinking, imagining and hearing.
I dont cry anymore. almost as if i cannot feel, funerals dont phase me even hearing my friend had cancer didnt make me hurt.i am wondering if there is anything left because no-one is real to me. im not sure what help i am asking for but having said h0w i think makes me a bit more satisfied
Counseling will help...believe me. I felt the same way some years ago and I went to see a psychiatrist who was able to prescribe me a medication. I also started meeting (sometimes 2 or 3 times a week) with a counselor. She let me scream, yell, and throw things. Along with the meds, it helped. It's been several years ow and I've been off the meds and no longer need to talk to the counselor. Please look into at least talking to someone...they can and do help!!!
ive gone so far with zero drugs entering my system and i really try to keep it that way buy counseling is pretty hard to do i cant open up
Coming out of post partum depression, I would think those drugs are a miracle, depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain and if you cannot find a way to deal with it, don't ask. If you cannot make an effort to help yourself, then don't ask for it~!
if someone else hurts me i will erase them i cant even find a place to meditate on my own and everyone finds it weird that i try to find time on my own to feel better. people want me to crumble under them but have been instructed refuse to.
It sounds as if you have a lot of anger you are trying to deal with. Any idea of where it comes from? I find it helpful to look for the source of my feelings. If I understand why I feel a certain way it's easier to overcome.
I'm guessing you are early teen? Are you having difficulty with your parents?
These are all great topics to discuss with a therapist.
Don't give up hope and don't let anger control your life.