I too avoid watching people kiss on tv. I usually watch non-romantic shows like CSI Las Vagas, NY, and Miami. I also watch a lot of medical mystery shows, news, documentaries.
But I use the tv to drown out my thoughts so I don't think about the past. I have done stupid things that have made me feel ashamed and I just don't want to think about it, so I keep myself distracted all day on the computer or watching tv.
I am sorry that you have not found someone yet for yourself. I lost a marriage and that really brought me down. So I went on the internet and started looking for dates. I found a really nice guy, it took a bit of looking and dating idiots but I hung in there and now I am re-married.
All I can say is not to get hooked on a person's looks you will never find the right guy that way. Looks are not important it is what is inside that counts.