Ok, well I'm 15 years old, and clearly suffer from panic disorder. I'm on medication, and It's working pretty well, with occasional attacks. Recently, I've been afraid, or somewhat completely afraid of anything pertaining to brain damage. If I touch a ethernet coord, I have to compulsively wash my hands in fear of lead abosrbing into my bloodsteam and causing brain daamage. Then after I wash my hand, I'm afraid the lead doornob well get me if the coord doesnt. I dont play any sports, and am afraid of swmiimming because of brain damage (not breathing). If I get tapped on the head I have to run mental calculations through my head to confirm nothing has been done, and then i still question that!


And just today, my friend and I were playing a board game, and I did something kind of stupid, and hegrabbed my neck and throttled my head back and fourth (not bad at all, didnt even have a headache, kind of in a playish manner this happened, no pain)


Im constantly researching effects of whiplash to see what brain damage has been dealt today.


Heres what i think it might be from: I am a rather small child, 15 years old, and approx 5 foot (male). I think I have a desire to been an intellectual type to compensate for what my size fails at. I feel as thoughI can contribute to the world in this way, intellectually speaking, that is. Dont get me wrong, I'm very intelligent, but this paranoia is rediculous (isnt it?)!

Someone tell me what this kind of paranoia is called, is it unique to me? Are these things actually causing brain damage?!!?!?!?


Thanks to any responses in advance.