Paranoia.

I wasn't sure where to post this at all, so I figured this would be the best place to put it.

I suffer with paranoia on a level that is really effecting my life. I don't feel normal. I'll explain it a little so you can tell me what you think is best to do about it.

Basically, I'm paranoid of peoples intentions. I know that sounds stupid, and everyone gets it, but it doesn't go away. I've had it my entire life. I can't remember any point in my life where I have trusted a person fully. When I think I trust someone, I often get knocked back.

In relationships, I find that I cannot relax, or sleep, if I know the person is talking to someone else. If I see a conversation, my heart races and my head goes kinda fuzzy, even if it's innocent. When I think about it after calming, I can see it more rationally, but when I first read it my head just kind of explodes.

I have to talk about anything in my head that is playing up, or it literally goes round in my head for days on end, making me more and more angry. I can't get myself out of it, I need constant reassurance that it's not how I interpreted it.

It's not only emotional though. I often find myself suspicious of others around me in a public place. I cannot sit at ease on a train or bus through fear of confrontation or teasing. I feel inferior to almost everyone, like they have more of a right and they look down at me.

I dunno, I just want to see if there's someone with the same issue, or someone that recognizes that it's not just normal insecurity. I feel crazy.