Hello, I don't really know where to begin but here it is:

I've been suffering from panic attacks for about 3 years now. The come and go, most never come because I am heavily dosed on clonazepam (Klonopin)and some antidepressants. I even have to pop a clonazepam before going to work or going out with a friend. Pathetic, I know. To make matters worse I suffer from really bad cainotophobia "fear of new things" So if I where to paint my room a different color, I'd freak. Or I get used to a messy room, then whent I clean it, I freak and make it messy again. I finally got my drivers permit and after I did I started panicking. Why just today; my friend offered to pay for me an online game that I've been away from for a year, and low and behold with in 30min of playing I started to fell the onsets of a panic attack and popped two clonazepam. I supose it wouldnt be so bad if it was just panic attacks but with my bad cainotophobia it seems that anything I do starts a attack. An endless cycle.

I was wondering if anyone has some suggestions on how to stop this, at least the cainotophobia as I have basically been living the same life for 3 years now and every time I try to do something new; a panic attack starts up.