I had my first panic attack when I was 20, it was a pretty bad one and they ended up taking me to the ER (I was in the Army doing "high stress" training.) I really didn't know what happened and it went away for 3 years. It came back during my senoir year of college. I found I could not sit through class, the background noises or something were making me panic and I just had to leave. I was still working and continued to for another 3 years while trying every anti-deppressent that the Dr.s would throw at me, none of them helped. My Dr. has me on 3mg of Clonzapam a day and 30mg of Remeron. Things have gotten worse and I lost my job about 6 months ago and I"m now at the point where I can barely go to the grocercy store with out panicking. At first I thought the Remeron was helping but now I'm not so sure, I spend all day feeling weird and that just fuels the panic. I also have had chronic diareha for about 6 months, after cancer was ruled out for that they have just put me on a large dose of prilosec and while that helps with naseua it does not help with diareha. I only mention the diareha because I always have a panic attack and have it followed by that. So now i'm 28 and jobless and don't know what else I should be doing. I'm trying to do CBT but I keep having panic attacks w/ the therapist and its not going so well, I use a book to try to work through it. So after reading all that I would love to hear any suggestions that anyone might have. Thank you.