My periods are so painful. They are beyond painful... they are unbearable

all I wanna do is curl up in a ball and cry and/or scream I am in so much pain.
I was reading on another forum that I am a member of how our moon time is supposed to be a powerful time for women...and essentially a happy time... when we are supposedly more in touch with Mother Earth and stuff, but my moontimes make me so miserable I can't feel powerful.
Like today, I am so crampy and in so much pain all I want to is curl up in a ball and cry, I am really really nauseous, and I feel sooo very bloated. I feel like a freakin blimp! My jeans won't even button without being so tight I can barely breathe (and when I sit down I am literally afraid they are gonna go "pop" ... and on me jeans are normally lose).
And I haven't even started my moon time yet! I am on birth control (Aleese)... and took my second inactive pill last night (third one will be taken tonight)
... so I assume I'll start either later tonight or early tomorrow (that's usually how my cycle works...
I never start on the day I start inactive pills, it's always 1 or 2 days later)
Arrrgh... I hate this!!! And it (the nauseousness, bloating, etc) usually lasts anywhere from 8-11days (from a few days before my moon time, until after it's over)
I am so miserable... I don't wanna move... hell, I don't wanna BREATHE... I just wanna curl up in a ball and scream!!!