oh my dayz i feel exactly the same as I've been in ur situation.
firstly it is uncommon to still be experincin pain after 2weeks I had this problem and in the end after 4visits to the hospital I had 2 have some tissue that had not been removed surgicaly removed at my local hospital. so you should deffinetly get this checked out.
2ndly to be honest in my opion and experience there is really nothing you can do to get over the guilt I dont think anyone ever does...what you have 2 do is forgive urself I know its hard and I haven't forgiven myself and dont think I eva will but whats done is done we cant go back, be thankfull that you do have kids because i dont and having one is all i wanted.oh and trust me cryin helps soooo much, if u feel like crying have a good 1, if u feel like talking, talk as much as you want its all part of the process.
I believe and Im not the most religous that god has forgiven us because we are only human and none of us no matter what moral high ground they try and stand on are without sin. You can go church and asks for forgivness I did this and even though im not a religous person speaking to the nuns helped me in a way that i cant explain it justa gave me a little piece of hope that God does forgive us.
hope this was helpfull if u eva wanna chat holla bk, take care and gudluck...it is a very long journey
p.s i have found that this is a very sore topic and in my case i can tell my friends n family dont wanna talk about it they brush it under the covers as if it neva happend luckly for me the boy is very understanding and lets me talk about it wheneva i feel like it i know he doesnt want me to but he knows i need to talk or i will go into depression. i hope you have some1 to talk to if not u can have me i found that its a bit of an alien thing to people hu have not had a termination and they believe that we should just get over it.
xxx