I am a 44 year old single mother. I have had depression most of my life but I have been able to function. I do not have any friends nor do I have a boyfriend. I have just started counceling. I am just over whelmed. I cannot seem to function in this world. In the last year I have had 6 jobs. I have no happiness, no joy. I feel so empty in side and really I feel like right now I need to be taken off the face of the earth. I do not know if there is any hope for me. I have had a emotional abusive child hood, as well as physical abuse. Married an abuser and many of the men I have became involved with have been abusers and disconnected from relationships.
I know that if something does not happen to break this cycle soon, I am afraid of what will happen.
im sorry to read how sad you are.i myself have suffered from depression for many years and like you i am a single mum.its really hard on your own isnt it? keep going with the counselling it does help,it may not seem so at first as all the bad feelings youve had locked up,come out and it hurts like hell and you will probably feel its making you worse but honestly ,stick with it and you will start to feel the benefit.i agree with rooted that you should be having some sort of anti depressant medication. i hope you will start to feel better soon.
I get rather sad around winter time. But I've never been diagnosed - havn't got the time to go to the doctors - with three children. Or am I afraid of getting labelled with depression or worse SAD or even worse Bi-Polar.
I use St. John's Wort capsules, go to the solarium once a week. I've also got one of those lamps which switsches on half an hour before I have to get up ... great. I also started to meditate, drink lots of water and take the children out in the buggy - regardless of the weather.
I've also got a great DVD with Summer scenes - which is excellent in those long winter months.