im 23 years old ,,iget married 3 months ago imet my husband 2 months before the weeding it was arainged marriage ,,he is awsome but the problem is that iwas in arelastionship with some one else for 5 years and things didnt work out between us and my ex- hurt me in every possible way,,in the last year we come back and broke like 5 times and that def- effected my mental health,,im pretty sure that i have depression all the online quizes say that im in dangerous zone but idont know how to fix my situation ,,my husband is not with me he works in adiffrent country ,,im just really depreesed all ithink about i the day that im gona die and life doesnt mean no thing for me any more,,what should ido??