Don't worry, women don't mind.
Now you got to work on you.
Find a way to love yourself, forgive yourself and live with it.
You can too start working on your core beliefs, I think that some of your beliefs might be causing your low self-esteem and contradictions in your perceptions.
A very powerful thing to do is to take few moments a day to relax and visualise yourself with the whole thing, a nice healthy penis and two solid balls. Like if nothing happended. Take few moments to completly forget that you had it removed and replace this memory for whatever you'd like it to be.
With this exercice, you might start simply forgeting you got 1 ball or simply stop caring about it cause truly, you're the only one who cares. Miracles happend.
Nextime you walk in front of a beautiful girl, don't let it be a reason to look down and walk away. See what happends.