I was just re reading the jealously thread. I think I have a problem with it to an extent. My ex boyfriend cheated on me. I don't know how many but I know I found phone numbers in his phone. We did end up breaking up and iv'e found someone new who is the greatest boyfriend i've had. . . ever. However, I have issues with trust and jealously. My boyfriend has never done *anything* to make me think he was cheating. He has never made me feel like poop and we have a great relationship!

A few weeks ago we went out to a bar and the waitress was a girl he went to school with. She *had* to touch his arm while saying "Oh, you were in my biology class!". I guess it's the way she said it and she had to touch him. It made me mad but I didn't say anything.

Now last week he was selling a twin size bed on Cragslist and obviously people were e-mailing him about it and he would give them his number to contact him. We got home on Saturday and I walked into the bathroom as he was emptying his pockets. There was a number on a piece of paper with a girls name. He said "f***! I forgot to call that lady today about the bed!". My mind started racing with all the possibilities. I got nosy and looked at the back of the paper. it was reciept paper from his job, but it wasn't an actual reciept. It looked like it was just ripped off the machine. He doesn't go on his e-mail at work so how did he get that phone number? I want to ask because I saw it but then I think about him being truthful and me over reacting and forcing him to push himself away with my insecurities.

I quite honestly do not think he would ever cheat or is cheating on me now His behavior is not changed really, still normal. I am afraid to ask him about that because we have had talks about my insecurity before and I don't want it to come up again and him end up getting tired of it/me. What should I do? What would you do if you were me? Should I wait and watch to see if anything odd happens and then ask him about it? If there isn't anything going on, he;s going to be hurt that I would think such a thing (which is what I think will end up happening)

Thank you to who ever reads this novel. I'm sorry it's so long.