Ok, so Im kind of wondering what this means. Its really a bunch of things that i suspect of myself...and Ive never been to a doctor/therapist.
So i think that i have ocd but im not sure. I check things a million times over. Like, if anyone is outside my window, if theres any bees in my room, if theres any ticks from my dog in my bed...etc. And i have this routine that i cant seem to break. I have halucinations a lot, so I'll see something in the dark, and i think i can actually feel its presence. So, Ill shut off anything that can make a noise, and shut off my lights in a certain way after im done. Theres a certain way things go in my room, which wouldnt make sense to anyone but me. When im in a car, i have to tap my fingers to the lines on the road or else it drives me crazy.
And by just worrying about this makes me think i have a chance of being a hypocondriac. My mother is one, and im not sure if thats genetic? my mother also has schizophrenia, but I dont know how long it might take for further signs than i already have to appear. I see things, and i know FOR SURE that theyre there. I hear things on a daily basis that no one else can, and i believe that i have premonitions. I believe i can contact the dead via Ouija board, thoughts, writing in the air with my fingers, and speaking out loud.