So, I've only posted once before, but I feel now is another time that I should post something. I'm actually in a situation where I feel I'm stuck, in a rut. I'm a 23 year old male, married, student, avid weight lifter and out going. But I have this other side of me that I have been battling for about 2 years now. Ugh, I can't believe it's been two years already. Anyways, I'm optimistic about my situation because I've come a long way already. I've been to inpatient once before, and Ive seen counselors and done the whole medication thing. But lately I've done a really good job at over coming almost all my urges. I've narrowed it down to about three specific situations in which I find myself completely hopeless and vulnerable:
1- When Ive been drinking (1 drinks, 2 drinks, it doesn't matter, my mind already starts to obsess)
2- When I'm alone (I think that's an obvious one for anyone who's bulimic)
3- Days when Im too tried after work or school, and I don't feel like working out. So instead of rationalizing the day as a well deserved rest day, I freak out and start wanting to bail out by binging and purging, ah! It's terrible.

Ok, I've already wrote too much, but the thing I wanted to post really, was that Im down to only "doing bad" about 2 times a week, which is really good for me and my wife, but that's 2 more times a week than it needs to be. So, I want to get back to doing therapy, just a little one on one again, but I have no health insurance, and have no idea how to go about getting just a little professional help. Im living on a student's income, and my wife is in between jobs. So financially we have just enough to pay the bills and that's it. But im in some dire need of someone professional to talk to. If anyone knows of anyone, or has any suggestions, please let me know. God bless to you all for reading this. And if you believe in God, would you mind putting me (Jeff Hand) into your prayers? Thanks.


Jeff