now am lost confused and depressed.

i just got out of a bad realtionship and now am lost confused and depressed but i cant cry. im very depressed and miserable enof but still no tears i never had this happen before when ever i wanted to cry it would come out but its like a ball of cancer stuck to me i need help i need to get over the events that happen to me to mend my heart and fade these scars the more i dont seem to cry the more i have thoughts enter my head that i just ended it all but i dont i put on a smile to full my friends but in the end they know im in pain and i suffer daily any tips on helping me out