Hello, my name is Lance and i'm 19 years old currently going to college in Southern California.

I used to play sports actively and for the past year and a half, ever since i started college i havent done a lot of physical exercise. I havent gained weight instead i've actually lost a bit of weight. I do have a problem with depression but i suppose i've never let it get to my head until i actually realized that it was depression.

Anyways, I just went through a major depressive episode, which has lasted for like 2 months. I just felt guilty, sad, yet for some reason sad movies didnt get to me. I just felt so distant from everyone in the world, like i was stuck in a tiny box. This major depressive episode a little bit before i started smoking cigars and cigarettes. Keep in mind that i'm also a college student who used to party and drink a lot until i lost interest in even that.

I usually overreact about things and cant stop thinking about them until i find a solution. My main concern lately is that i've lost interest in sex with females. This confuses me because i used to be so sexually eager and wanted to have sex with any girl i was attracted to. I've thought maybe i've turned gay, but i wonder is it possible to even turn gay when you've never been attracted to males. On top of that I am really opposed to gays and i think it's disgusting, so that REALLY scares me. I can easily masturbate to the image of a female but it just doesnt excite me as much as it used to. I am hoping that I can regain my sexual desire for females and get all of this weight off of my chest.

I would appriciate any helpful advice from anyone.