... or very little

I do not know what to do. I love my husband very, very much but unfornately no matter what we have tried together nothing seems to turn me on.

On very rare occasions I will feel it but it is no where as often as I or we would like it. It is so hard on husband because he has a high sex drive =/

He loves me and wants to be with me in all ways as do I but I seem to be alright with just doing other things together sense I am lacking that whole "feeling" but it really bothers me sense it is bothering him a lot. He will get in his moods than can last awhile because he just feels lost or stuck. He says he loves me very much and would never leave me but gosh I feel like I am doing nothing but anchoring him down and not even trying too =*(

Even when I do feel it and we do something my body will not relax enough for us to do anything. This is stressing both of us out because I do want to be with him but like I said just no sex drive to very little.

I have always been like this though even when I was younger but I thought it was because I didn't "find" the right guy for me. Though I also grew up thinking sex and such was a dirty thing because of how people in my school just slept around and not did it because they loved each other and really bothered me on that. Seems like no one took it seriously and cared less of the results of anything but when I meet my husband that whole view all changed. He showed me that men really can fall in love and be in love.

But now I can not open myself up no matter what I have tried he has tried.

Any advice would be most grateful =/ It has been two years we have been married and still have been able to have sex at all. Just snuggling and cuddling and such but that can only do so much. I feel so distant when I am not trying too but he and I are both discouraged to the point we do not even want to try no more because we never get anywhere and I am pretty sure it is all me =/ *sigh*

I am sure this makes no sense to anyone, I tired to explain this to my parents who totally had NO idea what I meant... they thought I do not love him or something and gosh no it is nothing like that. I love him for who he is, I find him very attractive, and he is just amazing! So it isn't that... I apologize if this was written a little wonky I am not very good at explaining stuff or delivering my lines right.