Newly Diagnosed four months ago

I was formally diagnosed with bipolar disorder about four months ago. Ever since age 13, I have been off and on antidepressants. I'm 22 now. And apparently since I was wrongly diagnosed and on the complete wrong medication, it may have caused some brain damage. However ever since starting the new meds, I had been feeling happy and didn't take things so seriously, and stopped being so negative.

For the first time in three months, I'm crying hysterically. Sorry to be blunt, but I feel like a crazy b***h. I'm starting to realize why I have such a hard time keeping friends, or keeping a guy around. Why I do the weird things I do. And I know it's because I'm freaking bipolar.

I'm just having a really hard time dealing with it. And accepting the fact that I will never, ever be normal.