New Life Style- eat to live, not live to eat!

For the last 10 years, I’ve been taking a cocktail of anti-depressants, ADHD meds, and mood stabilizers. When I started treatment, I was in being treated for depression and an EDNOS (eating disorder). By the end, it was depression, EDNOS, and ADD. In February of 2012, I had kidney surgery in which I had do complete various preps. I opted to stop taking all my medications because I didn’t want to sway the kidney meds from counteracting. I stopped my meds February 3. Its not April 5 and I have yet to start back up. I feel amazing and frankly have not felt this good in 10 years. They say talking to a therapist is not a life-long activity, perhaps medications are not either. Aside from feeling mentally stable and content - I am still having some serious food problems. I feel like I don’t know how to eat food like a normal person. I have to relearn how to consume food - eat to live, not live to eat!

Journaling is a must and I’ve found this to be key. But I’m really struggling with food right now. First I’m told I’m gaining weight because I am not eating enough and putting my body into starvation mode. So I up my calories and now I’m eating too much and still gaining weight. I can’t find a happy medium. Any input would be greatly appreciated.