I have never used a forum before so not quite sure if I am in the right place but I guess I have recently realised that I need someone to talk to.
Over the last two years I have progressively just started to feel worse and worse. I have always been the type of person to just put on a stiff upper lip and ignore the way I am feeling but it has now got to the point where I cant get through a day without bursting into tears or hiding away! I tried to tell my mum how I felt when she noticed my low mood but she just said "I don't know what is wrong with you" in an aggressive tone and made me feel like I was just asking too much to talk to her. I have never been able to talk to dad as I just am not good enough for him, he wants a model for a daughter, I thought getting my degree would please him but have realised that he just does not care. At the moment getting through each day is a real struggle, I hate being around people and just want to shrug into the background. I feel like I have lost myself, trapped deep inside screaming at the top of my lungs for help but no one even looks up.
You gotta put self-confidence in yourself, There is nothing wrong with you, you put that in mind, you keep your head held up high, and try doing better, but its never about pleasing someone for their benefit..
What you do is pleasing your own, it benefits you, sometimes we lose ourself trying to please the world, when sometimes the world doesn't have time for us, you gotta put forth your effort to strive to become better.
Seek a therapist maybe, talk to a good friend, and I'm sure they will help you out, the world might not lend us it's help, but its the people in the world that can help you out alot..
I hope everything goes alright, Remember, don't lose hope, everything will be all right