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Hmmm, I think you should find something you really enjoy.
A hobby, for me it's cosplaying.
Things that you like doing usually help away feeling depressed ore careless.

>But sometimes i feel like people hate me.
You're caring about what others think of you, never care about what anyone thinks of you! If you are a person you like being, then people should accept you, if they don't that's their problem, not yours.

Go to college, follow your dream. If you have good friends they keep in touch with you, you keep in touch with them too. Friendship is from two sides.
If they don't keep in touch with you even though you kept in touch with them several times, who cares?
At college you make plenty of new friends ^^

Hope I helped you a little

DO go to college if you have the opportunity..its a great chance to start over and meet so many great new people...i was SO SO ready to get out of my bubble of the same people I've been in school with since..oh..kindergarten..and going away to college was a great experience for me...though..i did end up transferring back home after 2 years haha..but it was definitely a great time..it sounds like you have so much going for you, i dont understand how you could feel this way...also, like the above poster said..your GOOD friends you will keep in touch with..the ones worth keeping anyway..i've kept in touch with my close friends from high school...keep your chin up, think of the positive things you have in your life that some aren't so lucky to have

trust your inner feelings, you are probably just in a stage of transition, go and involve yourself with new things and new people this may college and or something different as you go along in life you will realise what and who will help keep your spirit up and alive,in life there are many ups and many downs everybody experiences these talking about them is good it helps you realise you are just like the rest of us. anyway i think that it is a good thing that you are writting about how you feel, at the age of 17 you are just trying to figure out who you are and what you want out of yourself in life,so nothing to be sad about you should feel proud that you are thinking about the discissions you are about to make , well done in my eyes!

I am 23 yrs old now and I used to have the same feelings. I also have both parents who love me and everything I want to have, I can get it one way or the other, but it's like something is missing in my life and everything is misplaced. Sometimes I just don't want to be on this world anymore. I always thought those are just silly thoughts in my head, or I thought that I will change one day and not think about that anymore. I made my life even more miserable by not doing anything about it. People who don't know that feeling can tell you all the best things they think you should do, but it is not the same. It doesn't matter who tells you what, just go to the doctor who is openminded. That means a lot. Try to find a doctor who will listen to you and try to resolve the issue. Get a prescription for depression and use it for some time. It helped me. I don't cry anymore, I don't close myself in the dark room and have blank thoughts, I'm not moody or yelling at my family anymore, and I am glad I have made that step and did something about it. I'm taking Zoloft for 6 months now and I've never felt better. Good luck with everything!! I also have been taking healthy products from the site below. It helped me as well. My sister introduced me to the product.

i think an awful lot of people feel like they dont belong at school/in their teenage years. you may feel like you are alone and the only one that feels like that, but your not. i felt that way too at school. i didnt fit in, i lost friends and made some new friends but didnt feel we had much in common, and i could never really talk to them about personal stuff and they never understood me. i dont kno that people do even now, but thats ok. as for the family, your lucky to have a family that cares about you. theres always rifts in familys, maybe they aren't jealous of your parents education but maybe your cousins are jeaous of you if you get good grades, have nice parents etc? or maybe thats just how you feel? i always feel that everyone hates me, but you have to try and be rational. but every family has their probs.in my family -if u could call it that- when my gran died her wishes were that my mum (her daughter) wasnt allowed to go to her funeral! they are all full of hate. anyways when it comes down to it you gotta do whats best for you, which is do well and get a career you want and will enjoy and things will get easier as u get older im sure, and you'll learn not to care so much about how other people think and that its ok if your different and dont fit in, but when u follow ur dreams u'll meet people u have more in common with and will fit in with. x