hey everyone, im 22 years old, last yr i moved away from my family (across the county a 4 hr plane ride)to be with my boy. we are now engaged with a 5 mnth old baby boy who i love so so much, bout 3 mnths ago my partner had a fit an they found a cist on his brian, his had to stop work an we had to move in with his parents, his mum is not letting him go so were always fighting bout that. an i cant go to work coz he cant be alone with our baby incase something happens n his parents wont baby sit.

now i use facebook, an i had got incontact with my ex who was also my best mate, an iv fallen for him, my partner found out that we were really close, an has banned me from taslking to him. i still talk to him, i tried not to an i cant stop thinking bout him.
since this brain thing has happend with my partner we have been fighting heaps, but i dont no if thats to do with the stuff he smokes, which he nos i hate, he also drinks alot an hardly helps with our baby. he has exsesive mood swings an gets things at me for no reason, i could be sitting watching tv an he get his things an yell n stuff an say i stress him, but this mainly happens when he hasnt been smoking. i cant talk to him coz its always my fault.

im just so confused an i miss my family, what is some good advise?

ps the other bloke knows bout our baby and is very excepting