Need a reason to live

I lost everything I had in a tornado a year ago, lost my memories about 2 months ago. I live in an rv, no family. I am on disability, unable to work at this time, plus I don't have a car. I have to rely on neighbors for help, and I really hate asking for rides all the time.

I am alone, and most of the time, I'm ok with that, but sometimes I get really lonely. I don't go anywhere so I don't have any way to meet people. I don't have enough self confidence anyways. I don't tell people I'm on disability or where I live because I have before and I see the look on their faces, usually never hear from them again.

I don't see a way out of this. I don't want to live here forever, I can't save money, I barely get anything, I have to stretch what I have month to month. I hate the thought of no future, and I really feel I don't have one.