I know it is very hard I have had two miscarriages once when I was about 12 weeks along and the second was a chemical pregnancy. This is very hard and like you I doubted that I would have children. I am pregnant again and very very nervous I am ten weeks along but was told that my first two miscarriages does not mean that I will not be able to have a baby. You should talk to your doctor and maybe a counselor because this is something that is very difficult to deal with and I will pray that you get through it