im 22 years old now. i live alone and im down and drepressed all the time. ive never had a relationship ever. no girl, no love, no kiss, no nothing. ive never even had a real female friend. i even avoid watching movies because the love scenes gives me anxieties.
its not that im ugly. in fact im very not ugly. everytime i go out some girls gives me looks and others stare. i have a very ruggish manly look, near perfect body and handsome face. but i never approch these woman who stare at me. in fact ive never approached a woman in my entire life like that. i wouldnt know what to do and i would probably mak a big fool of myself. i got no charm and game at all and i certainly cant talk in a flirty way. every girl at the gym seems to be in love with me, but i cant even smile at them. its like a big mental blockage. but it also feels that if i would date a girl in a csaual way, i would lose my shot at true love.
i dont tolerate people calling me gay but somethimes i tell people who's wondering that i simply dont need love. this is a big lie and i need it more than ever. im just so lonely. i dont go to college and i dont work, all i do is go to the gym and occasionally meet friends.
what should i do? what CAN i do? i cant even remember the last time i was happy. how can i stop being so lonely?
i know this all might sound weird but its the truth and i seriously need some good advice
The solution lies within you. Until you make an effort to allow others in, they will always be left on the outside, continuing to veiw you as the currently do. Just step outside the box, smile, take a chance and you will get a smile back. You should also see a therapist to further assist you.
You have to make an effort and want to, to allow others to become close to you. Take the initiative to say, "Hello" to someone . Maybe it is best to see a therapist, or try to befriend them. Find things to talk about at the gym.
"How was your work out?" a good example. I kinda know how you feel, although I have a low self-esteem of myself.
I have dated in the past, however being hurt too many times kind of made me anti-social for a while =\. But, recently I started to get back up on my feet again and meeting new people.