Hey guys, I thought it would be good to share my experience..
My LMP was on June 12th, I knew exactly when I got pregnant so when I missed my period in July I took a pregnancy test immediately and it came back positive. This was my first pregnancy and because of numerous reasons decided to have an abortion. Logic told me that the sooner the procedure is done the better, had I done my research before hand I would have realized that you should wait at least 5-6 weeks before having the procedure done because it can be missed.
Anyhow, went to the doctor about 2 days later who immediately gave me the pills..inserted them into the vagina, and some to take orally. I had horrible cramps, and even though I have a high pain threshold, I was pretty much curled up in bed. I didnt start to bleed until about 8 hours afterwards, in fact I was up all night in the bathroom passing what I thought were clots. I was told to look in the toilet but I couldnt bare the thought. The next day the bleeding pretty much stopped and so did the cramping and I thought the worse was over. I had to travel for work that week so I went for an ultrasound that same day and was told that nothing was there.
This is where it gets interesting.
About 2 weeks later, I started to feel extremely nauseas. I mean all day nausea and I attributed it to the fact that I had just recently had a slight cold and thought this was one of the effects. I called the doctor and he told me that it probably was but to ease my anxiety to take a pregnancy test. Did that and it came back positive. Called the doc who told me to come in for an exam. Went to him and after doing a pelvic exam he was certain that nothing was there, but he told me to ease my anxiety again, we could repeat the procedure. He didn't give me as much pills as the first time because he was "so sure" that nothing was there. Anyway, had bleeding again, and of course the cramping, although it wasn't as bad as the first time, but I told myself that this was because nothing was really there.
A week later, I took another pregnancy test...still positive. Now at this point I had read that the hormone stays in your blood blah blah, but considering i was only 4/5 weeks pregnant at the time, it should have already left by then. SO I decided to not be a paranoid freak and wait another week...did that...and the test came back positive again. At this point I'm really starting to freak out because its been almost 5/6 weeks since the first procedure...so at this rate I would be about 8/9 weeks pregnant. Finally my doctor tells me to come into the hospital for a scan.
Would you believe that there was a 9 week baby in my uterus? Full heartbeat and everything. I guess you couldn't imagine how traumatized I was...considering this was my first pregnancy. After looking at the ultrasound and weighing my options, I couldnt help but think about the damage I did to my baby after 2 abortion attempts and it was still there, there was no way to tell if it would have abnormalities but there was a high percentage that it would. Anyway my dr himself was kind of traumatized and didn't understand how it missed it 2 times...anyway at this point his superior decided to perform the procedure himself...this time using a cytobrush.
Anyway, within 3 hours I had uncontrollable bleeding, nothing like before. I sat on the toilet and I'm sorry if this is too much information for you guys, but I passed this HUGE clot/sac looking thing. It was really big, where I almost felt like I had to push to get it out. This was almost 3 weeks ago, and I'm still bleeding, nothing like before, more brown than anything and because of everything that has happened to me I'm always paranoid.
Because of my experience, the dr at the hospital told me to come back in 2 days to do another ultrasound. Went back 2 days after the last procedure, saw the ultrasound and it was gone. Just some debris or something that he said was the rest of my uterus lining shedding. But I saw the before and after ultrasounds and there is definitely no sac or anything there.
I took a pregnancy test before I should have earlier this week and of course it came back positive...but considering i was 9 weeks, I expected that, but you can imagine how paranoid I am. Every little thing I feel in my stomach makes me think that its still there. I even thought earlier this week that my abdomen was getting a little bigger, but I'm trying not to be so paranoid and just wait another week to take another test.
I just wanted to share my story with you guys because I read so many of them on here and I know the anxiety you feel before and after an abortion. My advice is that if you feel paranoid or not right about something, please go and get it checked out, it may really not be in your head. Listen to your body and be persistent with doctors.
2 failed medical terminations, now Im not sure what to do.
I had to read your story as the same thing is happening to me right now I'm 9.5wks had 2 failed medical terminations, only to be told last week their is still a heart beat. The crazy thing is I think I now would like to keep my baby. When I took my 1st tablet I was so concerned I hadn't made the correct decision but once id taken it I knew there was no going back as the nurses kept reminding I had signed the disclaimer. Making the decision in the first place was the hardest thing Ive ever had to do, and in so little time. My pregnancy is a result of a brief fling with a man who now doesn't want anything to do with me and has told me he cant show me anything long term. Part of my reason for the unsurity is I have recently been diagnosed with fibroids, endometriosis also my womb is tilted back all these issues I believe may in future cause me problems when I'm ready to get pregnant. I have been told of the likely damage but as the weeks have gone on Ive found myself becoming attached. My biggest worry is the amount of damage I have caused to my baby by taking 2 courses of these tablets, I'm not sure I could live with myself if because of me I had badly damaged my baby. Im not sure if this may be a sign my baby is still alive, I go to see a fetal specialist in 2 days but other than that I feel awful and dont really know what to do.
I hope it's not too late to reach searching 1. I had an abortion 19 years ago because my then boyfriend was too busy in the frat scene. I still regret it to this day. I believe that I killed my baby and I can never fix that mistake. The pro-choice movement is feeding society a lie everyday. If you admit that you are devasted by your choice, then they blame you for your feelings. You feel bad because it's an abnormal act that your maternal instincts cannot deny. You don't have to keep it if that seems overwhelming. You can give it a life and give it up for adoption. Stay strong. Find someone supportive. Good luck.
Only you can make this decision. If you are looking for another opinion, I would keep the baby. It seems to me that after two abortion attempts and that baby is still with you, it's meant to be. Hopefully the pills have not done damage. I wish you luck and hope that you make the right decision for yourself and your baby.