sorry my English is not excellent but really need help...
i didn't really know where my subject fit in ,so maybe this is the appropriate forum..
i have issues to communicate with girls I'm a man 23 old year ,when i was a kid i always was feeling kind shy and just can't communicate with the girls nicely,and when i was kid the supervisor in camping "she was hot" and i can tell that she was likes me, she was look and act with me differently from the other boys in the swimming pole but i was kid and confused i was feeling bad and guilt of this kind of feeling Ara know maybe am too stupid sensitive ...
so to hide this feeling i was acting like a trouble boy ,try do everything that i cant to hid this feels,like to mock other girls ,or be aggressive with them ,i know this thing is normal when you kid ,when i became a teen old years,thing got worse ,because i was have this shy feeling that i just couldn't get rid of it,the shy convert to sadness and when I became a man it's convert to angry ,and now even without to speak to girls, when i see some girls who is gives me this nice eye contact it's really nice feeling but i just can't react positively so after she is go a way ,i ask my self:whats wrong with you are you stupid? you had chance but you lost it as always are you insane?are you gay?"which I'm not" i like women very much ,so i was really dying to this nice eye contact which now i can't have it anymore i can't be cool anymore outside all my feels are changed,this issue is now effect everything in my life,i have allergy round year from pollen and dust i feel sick all time ,hey fever,dark circle in my eyes ,eyes allergy ,and recently i diagnosed with partial epilepsy which i think this is was the problem but i couldn't not realize it ,all this angry feeling converted to rage and hate ,am now nervous and so angry my mood is not stable sometimes happy and sometimes very angry ,most the time angry outside and i just tired, i don't want and i don't like this bad feeling even my sleep got worse i just need rest ,sometimes i dream that i make a nice eye contact with some girl and i wake up and feel nicely,i know this shy issues is not the only factor of my life style ,but it's the trigger of all the issues that I'm suffering right now ,now am trying to improve my life to think positivity and my doctor tells me to take tegretol for the epilepsy,i feel like a freak and measurable,i get angry from the silliest thing ,i hate the arguments ,i became to hate to go outside because if i see something that i don't like it ,i get upset and angry and it will corrupt my day so this is my story ...i know it's seems silly but this is the truth, any suggestion it will help