your problem seems to be a spiritual one and needs such attension.

I feel for you. Perhaps you might consider getting some kind of theropy. You would be surprised how much it can bring out of someone. Sometimes intense fears that hide inside of us. I truly believe that if you can understan yourself and what it is in life that is so remorsful and depressing for you, you then can get the tools to combat it. A broken relationship where love is really a deep part of the feeling, is not easy to get over. You could use some lay back, informal help to get you through.

Best of luck

I agree with Carol...
You've been through a lot and talking about it could be really helpful. if you don't address issues you can dig yourself into a big black hole.

Harmony1 xo

maybe you can start by saying sorry to your ex-gf? and explain to her why you ended it all?
Read your bible one chapter a day, start from the gosple of John. Speak to Jesus, as if he is sitting by your side. you will see your life change right infront of your eyes.
Jesus said in Matthew 11:28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

God bless

i also agree with both ladies, you will find all this better to deal with if you talk to a professional good luck Jenny

It has been almost a year since you were in enough despair to write what you did. What has changed? Are things better or are you still in deep depression?

Hey there,the main thing you should know is that you're not alone. The worst feeling you can have when things go wrong is thinking about how to cope alone with it also, it seems that others lives are "perfect".You are being hard on yourself,it's actually quite normal and more common than you realise to feel isolated when you are down. I know,been there and it is hard!!! I empathise 100% with you because you feel powerless to help yourself. I eventually went to my GP and then a psychiatrist where I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. However,through medication and Cognitive Behaviour therapy I have felt life has fresh hopes and new ,positive beginnings for me. during my twenties I had many succeses at work,in a relationship,with friends and then at 30 I became separated,had work problems and was involved in a major debacle with my Ex over the division of our houses,assets etc.It was horrible..I have settled things now but, I really feel foe you.I felt I didn't have a real friend in the world and that my life was ruined. I now have a more open attitude to life and see that the biggest success in life is simply happiness...You will find light at the end of the tunnel,talk to your doctor,look into volunteering,take pleasure in the things that you enjoy and look after yourself. I hope this is happening for you,take care xx

I had the same problem as you,now some days i feel very good some days i feel terrible like before and this remind me for the bad past of my life,im 15,without good parents,understand if i cant help myself no one can,just try to relax go to a holiday,ask your dad for a couple money,if you havent friends go alone,its not that bad,you know its better without friends than with 10 false.Just be happy enjoy everything believe me this help.Do not touch drugs it does not help!Try dont think about nothing but the good part of life!Please we need to get out of this whole of caca!!No one help me and im just very little and a girl,but i did win!!Step by step!Listen nowhere is easy..my mom has only 5% for living she could die this were 6 months ago,my father all life wasnt good to me..my grandmother care for me but she is not a good quiet person ..when i was 5 i saw my home in ruins burning ..But i dont care i decide to trust only to me no one else, i love me egoistic but life made me this..Im like wall now no one can make me feel something,I did not tell this to no one only my family know and my ex best friend when we was kids,now we are in different high schools.The doctors and medicines will not help you,you will just lie yourself.You are still not a psycho,you are just need some love,trust,friends,just to go out of home,if u have go inside at nigh if u dont want to see a lot of people but go go out!You are 31 so visit some clubs..had 1 shot =)If you dont like the city where u live try to visit some other city like to holiday as i said..Love yourself!I know what,because im feel!Watch good movies,eat your favorite food!Live little more dynamic.You know the dogs are great friends.Live your life,dont make stupid things!live it,enjoy it to your way!TRUST AND BELIEVE,LOVE YOURSELF AND PEOPLE WHO LOVES YOU REALLY TOO!With love P.S.

well you see i also have problem

you see i also have a problem. In my work i love my work except for one thing my boss she is giving me a hardtime i think shes evil. I really want to quit my job but i dont want to dissapoint my parents. you see being with her is like hell, its like i fell into hell hole that i cant escape, i think i have a trauma because of her shoutings please help me i am really depress..

I think you may be suffering from post traumatic stress syndrome. I assume you have seen some terrible things having gone to war. The feelings you have can happen to anyone who has been through what you have, and with the right help you can overcome them. I think it would really help you to go to your GP and tell him how you feel. You really have nothing to e ashamed off. Many people are going through what you are right now. My friends father was a police man, and eventually had to leave as he was so affected by what he witnessed, he was diagnosed with post traumatic shock syndrome. You have been through a very hard time and its so understandable that you feel down about it, you wouldn't be human if you didn't. I honestly think you can begin to mend and you do have hope. Your still a young man , with great possibilities ahead off you. Don't forget that.

Look: life is short; war is terrible. What you need to do is talk to Jesus. He is the way, the truth, and the life. Perhaps there is more for you in this life than focusing on you and the bad things that perhaps you have witnessed or done. Go and help people; volunteer to pack food.- I know you don't have much yourself, but giving not getting is what will give your life meaning.