I have a girlfriend who i love very much.We're both in our twenties we've been dating long term and i thought we were headed towards marriage. A few months into our relationship she revealed to me she suffers from extreme germaphobia as well as a very sever anxiety disorder. At first there were only a few things such as avoiding public bathrooms, she takes two hour showers, and she washes her hands a lot and i learned to deal with it. As of late though shes been getting much worse she cant touch almost anything and at some points she'll completely isolate herself from me which makes me feel like i'm doing something wrong even thought she assures me i'm not. She also refuses to tell me or anyone else whats bothering her. When shes in a good mood things are great but it only takes one small thing to completely ruin a day and then she wont even want to see me at all which makes me feel terrible. She sees a therapist and takes medication but sometimes its not enough. Monday she had a panic attack so severe she had to bre brought to the hospital and be sedated. I cant leave her becuase my feelings for her are still very strong and and i don't think either of us could handle it. We both still live with our parents and she had a major anxiety attack last night forcing me to bring her home. Her mom called me very early this morning while my girlfriend was still asleep she told me last night that my girlfriend confessed to wanting to kill herself ,because the anxiety had become too much to bare, so she wanted me to come over and make sure she didn't do anything in her absence this made me feel physically ill and made me extremely upset. When she awoke with me in the house she was really upset but she calmed down and it seemed like we would have a good day but after a few hours she had another attack made me leave saying i could comeback after her shower but now she wants me to stay away making me feel worse. Before i met her i suffered from depression as well but it seemed to dissipate because i've never felt so in love before. Now that i've become so attached its making it worse and i feel completely helpless because no matter how hard i try nothing cheers her up. I've been cring alot lately and i feel like i'm heading towards a breakdown. I have no idea what to do and no matter what i feel hopeless. I'm starting to hate myself.