my friends and i are very different.

okay i always feel like my friends are not the right ones. i often feel left out and often feel little. as if i should be quiet. I have 5 friends in my group.and there gils who dont care about school, there more of girls who just like having fun. although there mean and harsh sometimes and i hope to think im not the same way but i have a bad feeling i coulfd be exactly like them. which is a fear because there reputations are weful and im somebody who wants to go place. i dont think my friends know that i feel this way, i reakon they would care but they wouldn't understand or know how to deal with it. it would make them more umcomfortable to be around me and yeah. my friends and i are very different. my friends have aalot of drama, there in to gossip, guys, and having fun. i like that stuff too i cant lie about that. but because i never hang with them i dont know what half the crap there tlking about .where as i am all about becoming a lawyer and i hang out with them sometimes buti feel sometimes im just a drag you know. im a girl who stays after school for an extra our and a half and just to do homework and then goes home.to a loving family who i kind of have issues there too but point being my friens are hanging at each others house. it just aint cool you know. i wanted to come on this site to talk to somebody because i feel i have nobody to talk to. even though theres heaps of people around me, it embarrasing and i dont want to look unstable.i feel very low confidence but my friends believe im bubbly as that was how i used to be but i dont feel that anymore?