|I felt strongly to share my story . When I was ill, I asked my father whether I will be cured, he said possibilities are very less.I had an argument with him that, why we dont see any one who got cured from mental illness ? . He said that some people are cured but their success remains hidden due to social stigma attached to mental illness.
I don't know how actually I got rid of it,may be due to my friends support and their faith.I was misdiagnosed with schizophrenia in 2005 March and later with BD in April 2008 and it continued till 2009 Oct.I had auditory and visual hallucinations in that period.My father is a paediatrician so I was diagnosed at the first symptom. I remained under medication and had a very bad academic performance.I failed in my first year of engineering.
In between I left the medication suddenly for almost 6 months,and one day due to high stress, mood swings became extreme which was untill now kept under control by olanzapine .I again went to another psychiatrist,by that time my manic depressive symptoms were very clear.The doctor changed the medicines accordingly.It was April 2008. I promised everyone that,I would continue my medicine.After the relapse and started the medication again.I was totally hopeless with my intellectual power dampened by lithium carbonate (best med to control BD) and other medicine to control its side-effects.The pain inside was so much intense that it can be explained in words.But the condition was such that my hands trembled, when I tried to write,but still I forcefully practiced for my exams.In between that time I was tempted to leave the medicine again,I left it and faced the obvious consequences.
Engineering was too demanding, I knew that,so I again took the risk and started skipping and lessening my dosages.I worked hard to learn my subjects.In this skipping-period,whenever I felt I was crossing my limits I took Lithium.Amazingly when results came out, I passed all 7 subjects of first year engineering.This was really a feat for a person who was diagnosed recently.I was filled with optimism, by now I was very stabilized.But during periods of stress,I took some lithium.I started living life exactly like before.
Gradually I controlled my dependence on lithium for stress relief and completely stopped medication.Two years passed on. one day I told truth to my father.He told me to give my psychiatrist a visit.So,I visited him and revealed him the truth.When I asked about medicines he said that,you are perfectly fine without them so whats the need of them. That was the day of my redemption .I still have the prescription written my psychiatrist --Under observation ,something like that.He told me to contact him if a need comes.
Its been an year, there is no sign of bipolar, even the faintest.I had a tryst with bipolar disorder for 4 years so I know its symptoms very well. I know my story is hard to believe but its every word is true.