Hi, I have been looking around the net for some kind of support forums for families of HIV sufferers.... The week before last my mum became very sick and was rushed to hospital, last week we found out that she is HIV positive, I know that she needs me right now BUT I can't be around her *sobs* and thats not because of the HIV or that I am under the ullusion that I will contract it... its because I am so god damn angry and resentful at her, even though I know she didn't ask for this to happen... We think she contracted it from Africa, where she has been going for over 10 years, I have had the conversation with her about using protection out there and she said that she had and had also has been having HIV tests.... I also find out last week, its all lies, she never has used a condom whilst out there nor has she had a HIV test before...We live in a small town, everyone knows everything about everyone and through her ex, who obviously had to be told, he has told people and its gone around like wild fire, I'm worried for me,mychildren,mybrother and of course her.... but I just cant help this anger that I feel towards her..... *sigh* and also there is the possibility that if she has had it for all that time it could have already progressed to AIDS.... We are awating the CD4 and Viral load to come back.... even then i'm not sure what all that means *sigh* I just feel so bloody alone in all of this (